been awhile...things changed.

Yes, it's been awhile I updated my blog. I've been so stressed with life and it's challenges. I've been on a constant battle with my feelings and reality. Sometimes I really wonder what I want from my life. Why am I always feeling like I'm losing myself slowly. Why am always on a battle to make myself happy? What I haven't done to make me happy? I am tired of trying to find myself. I miss having my family around. They always managed to keep me going without realizing it. It's tough that when things go wrong, I don't have them to turn to. I guess this is all part of growing up right? I guess I'll be okay.

:'D

You have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Because they’ve decided that they’re not going to let anything hold them down, they’re showing the world whose boss.

Random :)

I can't sleep and its 4.37am. I will post random pictures, please don't judge :) xoxo!

A

A

I thought I had no love in my heart for anyone. I thought my feelings were all gone and I'm just some heartless girl. I thought wrong. A changed it all. He made me feel like there's always a little space for love. He might not now how I feel for him. I feel like I rush a little too much on my past relationship, so I rather just let things go on its own flow for now. I want to keep things safe between him and I. Better be safe than sorry right? :) A.. hmm what can I say about him? He's not my type at all, but right now he's what I want. His personality makes me so alive and ecstatic. He remembers the littlest things about me. :) I hope he's a keeper and that maybe someday we can happen <3 xoxo

finals.

It's been awhile since I wrote. Been extremely busy with my finals. 

Statistics deff killed me, thank god Finance was alright.

First semester of University life and I'm already stressed. GREAT!

I know I can do this, will just take time :)

11 days till New York City! <3

Been awhile.

.....So it's been awhile since I wrote. I've been so busy with assignments, midterms etc. But anyways, I'm back in my hometown Kedah now. Getting spoiled my dear grandma :) tehehe. Her cooking is amazing but damn I can feel myself gaining weight which is very NO BUENO. I guess I have to start heading to the gym again. ahhhhhhh! 

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So I went to an Engagement ceremony the other day for the first time. It was all very new for me and I have no clue what was going. I was just watching and tryna figure out what was going. Thank god my friend Dayana was with me, if not, gosh I'll diee :P

The 'pelamin' was very cute and pretty 

 Dayana, me and Nala

Je adore babies :)

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

 ~Karen Stephanie Licona~ aka Kayelle

Okay where do I start? This chica is my best friend and blood sister. Like seriously we're blood related :) Don't ask how but we just are. She has been through a lot with me. We have our mini fights but we just end my making up in a couple of seconds. She means the world to me. If ANYONE messes with her, they're messing with me first. :) 

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~Marissa Estelle Bahari~

This girl is like my twin. We're too alike :) It's funny how we fool people in MMU that we're not Malaysians. Like we're sick of it. If we say we're malaysian, then we are. GOSH! But anyways I love how when we go shopping, we make it sure that each other sticks to buying only one item. <3 I love how we have ways of identifying people using times ;) haha i love this girl :)